These white people at work got me fucked up!

 


But I don't think I'm going to do anything about it?

Ok, lemme explain. I'm an assistant manager for a retail store. Out of 4 managers I'm the black one. Then we have of the 3 white managers, the lazy one and two slave masters. All 3 of em run that store like a fucking plantation. And yesterday they took it to an all time high. Actually breaking records for the amount of work done in a day. What really pissed me off was the deviation from the plan and moving the goal post every time we reached the finish line. 

So my problem is, I'm trying to just be neutral and collect my check. I don't want to get promoted and what happened yesterday is the kind of situation that makes me want to be in control. This is why I can't be an assistant manager, because I'm always smarter than my boss. Stupid shit is a huge trigger for me. I always get promoted so that I can control the environment and make it a great place to work. However, I don't want all that responsibility right now.

So I'm going to have to learn how to take an L and let it go. This is very out of character for me. I have been advocating for myself since I was 12 years old. I have been fighting battles for that long as well. I'm tired and worn down physically, mentally and emotionally. I'm trying to figure out how to do less at work not more.

I'm going to start by figuring out how not to look high. 

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